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Name: Beth

Age: Twenty-two

Gender: I don’t even know anymore, something feminine-ish I guess

Self Photo: 


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Food: I really like shrimp shahi korma with naan

Drink: water

Book: historically, it has been My Name is Asher Lev by Chaim Potok

Movie: Probably Shawshank Redemption or Pan’s Labyrinth

TV Shows: Adventure Time

Band: TV on the Radio and Modest Mouse never fail me.

Place: Jay Cook State Park

School subject: Creative writing or psych

Actor/Actress: None right now

Public Figure: None right now


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Siblings: Older sister (24), younger brother (20)

Dream job: Not working ever

Fears: people

Religion: Agnostic Athiest

Tattoos: none yet

Piercings: each lobe and one cartilage 

Languages: English, poor Norwegian

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Reason behind url: It’s been a while but it originated somewhere from the scientific name of the kind of willow tree I had for a while in my backyard, and the amygdala

Why you joined: Don’t ask

# of blogs: Ha

I’m not tagging anyone, I’m just vain.

Tw sexual assault/related under “cut”


My friend was assaulted again and I feel like I can’t breathe.

It’s like it’s everywhere.
Like its inescapable.
I mean I know we’re also in a heavily targeted age range so maybe it won’t always be like this but that’s not really much of a comfort.

This is exhausting.

They don’t deserve this shit. Nobody does.

My arm looks weird in that photo wth


Please excuse the poor composition quality I just thought I looked cute today and wanted to document.


Please excuse the poor composition quality I just thought I looked cute today and wanted to document.

There’s this girl I follow who posts pretty girls with hashtags like “:(” and “not fair” and while on the one hand I really understand feeling suboptimal in comparison to others it’s also really frustrating like stop making this stranger’s selfies about you./rant

Not gonna lie, watching Legend of Korra season 3 us kinda weird. The bad guys are violent anarchists who have all been locked up for a long time for various crimes and try to kill Korra and all major world leaders. It’s frustrating to watch a cartoon I enjoy spread negative anarchist tropes. I’m not saying every anarchist is perfect but damn they are almost never positively portrayed.

I’ve been thinking about getting into plot and character development again. Considering using the elements I developed before buy abandoned.

The problem with my old story wasn’t the setting and world building so much as the main character’s specific storyline that was problematic.

I think I wanna make some entirely different characters and have things go much differently.


Pink hurr

Pink hurr

I dyed my hair pink. To be honest it was largely motivated by the fact that I felt too masculine with my haircut even though I also really like it. Been having a ton of feminine gender feels. I’m starting to think that I tend towards fluidity because it changes ever few months. Hmm.

Tw eating disorders/weight talk under the phone app “cut”
I have lost enough weight where my legs have changed size and look much smaller than they really are at certain angles/positions. Or in the right pants. It is super unhelpful and making me want to lose more weight which I cannot fucking afford.

I can’t be weak and shaky and tired all the time and keep my job. I can’t. It would actually put the individuals in danger depending on how physically unwell I am.

And here I am, looking at triggering bullshit.

I am an idiot.